Turns out I've been preparing all my life for rockstardom. All those years spent ingesting LSD, mescaline and mushrooms while sitting in a haze of smoke. Top it off with film school and I'm about qualified for nothing. Who knew you couldn't get by on good looks and a 100% track record for talking people down from bad trips. Are there any jobs out there for daydreaming and being pleasant. I'm quite good at being pleasant. When I used to interact with other humans I was told as much quite often.Too bad I couldn't get a counseling job based on my experiences as a shit head. Talking people down has made me rather good at helping people talk through their anxieties. Unfortunately I didn't notice this skill until I had already gone through school. Now I can't afford it. Plus I have a comic book to write and I don't want to sit on it any longer. I've had this particular story brewing for 3 years. Plus I have two more full on epics that I hope to someday get to write. Man I suck. I get so stressed about having no income that I waste so much of my unemployment not writing.
I'll have to talk myself through my anxieties about having a shit job. Otherwise I'll harp on myself for never trying hard at anything, all the while depressing about the crappy minimum wage job that I will eventually have. I worked in a video store for awhile and got so down about my dead-end situation that I had no creativity. I'll have to constantly remind myself that my comic is the reason for my low-responsibility job and the key to bettering my situation.
I've always half started and abandoned everything. I guess I've been conditioned on the instant gratification of tripping and just being alive in this era. I'm such a lazy shit.
2 comments:
you could always be a stripper and write in your free time.
yah, I know I'm just Soooo helpful.
"hello" (waves)
Hmmmmm, maybe I could do burlesque. I do have a penchant for the naughty and dramatic.
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